Ramble

Today is the day…of….Daylight Savings Time! How wonderfully lovely. How wonderful when you have two tests to study for, a French essay to write, stats hw that is incomprehensible, forms to fill out, and a ton of rusty repertoire to practice. A rehearsal tomorrow as well, all smothered by an overwhelming desire to read Pride and Prejudice nonstop and play sappy, romantic music on the piano. My thoughts are so jumbled and I can’t do anything else but write out all the urgent matters that I must attend to….on a pink sticky note. And that bright pink stares back at me…the little boxes I drew next to the to-do’s are empty and are wanting of affirmative, decisive checks. But sadly, they will not get checked off tonight…I took a 3 hour nap today and am still floundering about even now. And on top of it all, we will lose a precious hour tonight. The Taiwanese gangster movie that my mom is hankering to watch is calling, but we cannot watch it tonight. *sigh*. Last week was quite stressful, and this coming week is just as stressful, if not more.

I don’t think I’ll be writing poetry as often anymore. I need to have some emotional pain in order to write it. And I have none right now. Though it does make my life less complicated, this absence of petty “heartache”, it does block my creativity flows and the Anti-B antibodies in my blood are agglutinating with the foreign red blood cells, thus causing organ pain and slowly…….yes. I am done. Goodbye. '

an "I love you" to God. I've been drifting away.....too busy with that durndest school work.....to do my QT and to find the energy to pray aloud at night. 

Remember, Melody....remember.

and now, i'm starting to use words like "durndest"... reminiscent of my Harvest Gypsies days and all that Dust Bowl commotion.