Frustration

So restless and frustrated right now....I came home from school with the full intent of finally getting my recording for YAHS done today, but after 2 hours of practicing, recording, and pulling out my hair, I only have one full recording of all three pieces.......and the second and third piece has quite a few mistakes...DARN PEDAL MISTAKES.
After i finally recorded the pieces one through (we have to play all three in a row in one sitting...memorized), i went on the website to take a closer look at rules and repertoire. I read up on the past winners, and was so depressed. The winners of 2008 were all around my age at the time...so they'll either be 17 or 18 now....at least i won't have to compete with them for college....or perhaps i will have too. idk. But i read that at least three of them had studied with Judy Loman, and won all these competitions (mostly AHS Nationals). wahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

I feel like i'm running after them, trying to chase all their footsteps.